The Struggle is Real

The struggles are real, the way I feel 
lost,alone, sad,worthless, mostly unreal 
My duties have doubled in chores 
Seems the whole world expects more, and more, and more 
I failed again, as a wife, and your friend, and again as a mother....
Now the ones I truly love endlessly, 
gone,off again with another 
I believed it would be different, even better, 
but here we are again...in love with a letter
always so sweet and gentle and kind 
But this time around there's doubt in the back of my mind 
On the day we got married, I didn't imagine, even consider 
this time would approach, I'd be going to sleep again, alone, not together 
I believed if ONLY I'd kept it together, 
you would still be here now, FOREVER 
The Struggle is Real...the other's involved, the way they made me feel, 
old,fat,ugly, hopeless, intimidated, 
But most of all, less than 
The Struggle is Real...the lurking fear....
That maybe I am not  good enough for my man. 
Danniel Abildgaard 
10/2017