THE UNWANTED KNOWING

I am a loner by choice not force.
I have to admit I not happy with my choice.
I have the opportunity to be greater than life itself but I chose to hide my gift.
I don't want people wanting me.
I don't like to feel their pain.
How can I be blessed by the gods and act as if my gift don't exist.
I must be selfish.
I know I am selfish to see things in the past of another and pretend it don't exist.
I hate feeling like I'm invading but why me.
Why do I have to bare others problems as if I was there.
I run and hide to block from seeing.
I run and hide to block from knowing.
I must be cursed with a gift.
And for that I am a loner by choice not force.