THE WAY BACK HOME

Sitting
with Siblings
The other
Day
I discovered 
why I was 
So
Insecure
Growing Up

They mocked
Me 
In front 
Of  My Grown Boys

All I have accomplished 
As a Scholar
and
A COMMANDER
in Corrections
Meant nothing

To my sisters
I am still
The Boy
With a learning
Disability 
The runt
Of the Litter

We were instructed
To make decisions
Together
About My Father's 
Estate
Yet in the end 
My voice
Was ignored
and
For the sake
Of my mother
Who lost her 
Life partner
I kept silent
In order to
Keep
The peace

I guess
It is true
you
never 
Really go back
home
as things
change

However
with that
Said
I believe 
a revelation
Occurs 
When you
Return
For
The demons
That haunted 
you 
As a child
You come
To realize 
Were
Not just
Feelings
But  actual Real Human
Beings

And what 
Makes it
Worse
is 
Understanding 
The evil
Derives
From
Your 
Own blood.....