This Ambiguous State
Through a veil of gossamer obscurity.
Passing thoughts in chaotic chorus diminishing the ordered regime.
No place for theĀ mundane to dwell...
Who sees it? Who knows it?
who lives through the manic,hypomanic and the depressive?
Each dawning bringsĀ a new perspective seen through bevelled glass,
but changeable, within a hairs breath to the opposing view.
Colours that invade the exploring mind...brightest vermillion, sunburnt sienna and luminescence becomesĀ their carpet ride...
Always haltedĀ unexpected andĀ irrevocably..falling down to earth from their magical journey
Into the abyss once more..endless darkness...no velvet softness...a motionless sea of black despair waiting, waiting to carry you nowhere but soĀ slowly......
Who sees inside that head? Who can replace the extremes? The impassioned joy ...the crippling griefĀ
All felt within the day, the hour, the moment.......
Chemical control, desensitizes you until you becomeĀ what society can handle, docile,opinionless,impotent,....normal
BipolarĀ is cold,arctic,bleak and distant
Bipolar is my child......
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hiĀ Lodigiana.... a really well constructed, sad and poignant piece. love the descriptive language and wonderful use of imagery. This is a really astonishing piece of work..but no surprise as I think you are extremely talented . 5 stars ! and well deserved
Thanks so much Steviec..such a challenging subject to write about but one worth throwing more light onto- thanks for your comments xx
Lodigiana
Some parts of this stark poem echo Sarah Kane's last play, 4:48 PsychosisĀ (which Kane completed just days before she committed suicide).
Written with compassion, insight and a willingness to look into the abyss (despite Nietzsche's warning).
J ;)
Hi Jason, loving your analysis and analogy. Will definitely have to check out Sarah Kaneās work, which I am guessing Ā will be quite a difficult read if it preceded her suicide? Although not the happiest of subjects to write about, having people close to me, who are articulate enough to express how challenging this situation can be, was a real reality check on how their lives feel lived day to day. Your analogy with Nietzscheās warning is so so interesting in that by āvalidating it we come itā,.but I hope that maybe shedding some light on it also allows for a clearer passage through it. I am part way through quite a Ā dank poem about suicide but as yet am still struggling with the whole balance of it as it is obviosly such an emotive subject both emotionally and spiritually that finding the right level, so to speak, is proving much harder than I thought.Thank you so much for such a constructive review- really appreciate it! Xxx
Lodigiana
* obviously* sorry typo..
wow what a mouthful so cool like it linda j wright
Thank you so much Linda, xxx