This house was once a home

In this house that was once a home
Now empty and a derelict zone
Full of cobwebs and sad memories
Of how good the times we had here used to be
But now tears are all that's present
And loneliness and too few blessings
I wish you were still here now with me
Instead of treading stairs winding heavenly
I had been told there's a reason for all things
But it's left me cut adrift and truly gasping
My heart broken and my spirit devoid
Of any emotions or feeling everlasting
The pain it rips at my chest
My stomache is knotted and it never rests
Darkness is all I see and heartbreak now defines me
I am lost now in a whirlpool of grief
Dragging me downward to drown to my relief
I think life now is unbearable
Without you here my dreams will be for ever troubled
My hurt and pain simply doubles
At the thought of you in my thoughts scrambled and muddled
My life is now just living in the rubble
Of a love destroyed by disease
From where there was no release
And now all its left me with are tears and heartache
Grief and heartbreak.