THIS....ME...

Who am I
This...me?
Iv no idea
Is my mind 
Me?
Empty vessel
That
Fills and spills
Unconscious feeling
Thoughts
Unwelcome
Unbidden
Jealousy, rage, envy, fear
Visitors 
That flit and play
Tease
Linger
Then flee
Chased away by
 Me?
A million fragments
Unfocused
Unclean
All trying to reign 
Supreme
And then
Conscious thought
Worries galore
Insecurities
Stacked up  
High
In my mind's door
Terrified things 
Like 
Shadows long
That assault my brain
From dusk to dawn
All needing 
Attention
Comfort
Approval and care
But
Im never ready
Never quite
There
A zillion pieces of confused
Broken 
Soul
All mixed together
A flesh and blood bowl
Am I
Loving mother
Loyal friend
Daughter
Nana
Sister
Wife
Where do
     i
Begin 
Who am I
In the end
Am I strong
Weak
Funny
Bleak
Happy, sad, mad or bad
Or all?
So
Who am I
This... me?
Which version world
Do you see
Tell me
For I think
I shall never know
Me.
(Marion price) 2017