Thoughts..

Left Me with Words to Remember..
But i Know You Regret Our December..
Meeting Me
Saying Hi
When Just Yesterday we said GoodBye..

To Be Honest No I Don't Like You.
To Be Honest I Really Never wanna See You.
To Be Completely Honest IF Ever we Meet -
I Swear I'll be blinded 
For i Refuse To See..

Alas a daggar upon thine own heart
Given a daggar you took it to start
We fought for seconds upon earths time
Give this heart and yours not to be with mine.

Yes I Chose to end it Before
But i didnt wanna end it that way..
Yes i chose to walk out the door
But Never again did i want to fight today..

She questions why i did what i did 
She wonders why i let myself Drink Poison -
But Y'Know what ?
With every drink i took it was her face and my mind it was in..

Trying to drown every memory of her
No matter how vacant they seemed they were.
Trying to get rid of every ounce of feelings for her -
By Killing my thoughts with poison to deter ..

Forgetting every laugh or fight
Forgetting every Tear i cried
Fighting the urge to talk to her 
But failed when it came to night..

So Now as i type this in
I'm Fighting every urge to throw my phone.
letting the heart keep beating but losing
Wanting so bad to just go home..