Thy will

My life has sadly been a tired scarred one 
Childhood, I saw hurt on my mum, so we ran, 
A protected home then moved on again 
Faced my tears, first love, loss, where it began, 
I loved, I was used, lied to & ripped apart 
I turned to another evil, to hurt me another way, 
I hurt those close, locked away & repeated
My life felt like a cloud, dark overhead, ney went away, 
People around me I started to lose, I never let go
My best friend gone & family, losing their fight, 
People who were fake came to use me, all over
I bent over to help, they burnt out my life light, 
I have no sleep, emotional tired of every day 
I want to go to sleep, to stop the silent screams, 
I can't be used or hurt when I have a good heart
I miss my friends & want to see him in my dreams, 
I lost my childhood, a step dad who drank & beat
I couldn't get the phone for help, ate me away, 
All I wanted to be was in love & just loved, needed
I lost my health & desire to banish every day.