To my friends and family

I have a mental illness called bipolar one disorder.  This means that sometimes I am very happy and energetic and sometimes I am very depressed and sad. I also can't control myself during really bad episodes.  I may say or do something that irritates or upsets you. I may not stay in contact with you and I might avoid you. I don't mean to. The disorder takes over and kills my joy sometimes and I don't want to kill yours so I stay away.  Please understand that this is an  illness and doesn't define who I am. I would still like to be invited to spend time with you...I may need a little push though..mostly I just don't want to feel alone.