To My Mum

 Pamela Kay Carter 29/5/1955  -  12/07/2019
Taken from us to soon, 
Thiis life just isn’t fair 
It’s not how it should have been 
It was never meant to be this way 

After everything that you have been through
All the hurt and all the pain 
It just couldn’t leave you alone 
It had to win the game 

And Even though it won 
Tried to take you where you lay 
You took death into your arms 
And you showed it how to play

It was on this sad day , 
The 14/7/2019
The year my world was shattered 
The year my mum left us to die 

You taught death a lesson
Showed it your not scared
Don’t ever dictate to my mother
Don’t ever think she is weak 

Your strength was empowering
Staying strong with no fear
Never showing it how much you hurt
Making sure that we weren’t near  

But you  never gave up hope 
Even when your body was failing fast 
So you gave death an ultimatum
To Let you dictate your last hoorah 

Protect my children please  
Don’t ever let them see 
How evil you really are 
And then you can take me 

You knew that we weren’t ready 
Even though it wasn’t your time 
You knew you weren’t coming home 
When you left my house that July

You came to me when I cried for you 
I thought I was going to die 
You gave me everything you had left 
You gave up your life to save mine 

I am so mad at you for this
Not letting us say goodbye
You didn’t let me hold your hand
Or wipe your tears if you cried 

You left on your own terms
Told them how it was going to be 
Protect my children always 
I don’t want them to see 

Forgive me mum, i failed 
I’m sorry I wasn’t there 
I should have been right there  with you 
Holding you close for your last breath

I don’t know how to say,  
How much you mean to me 
Just know we all miss you like crazy 
And love you so much more , especially me

By Blueeyez 
2019