To never hear “mummy”
To never hear “mummy”
I was unaware, it was inside me, the cruel life changing disease;
That would steal my future family and plans with such devastating ease
It held hopes hostage, it prevented so many dreams;
It halted my desires & experience of what having a family means
How I suffered, a tortured body, pained beyond belief;
The endless treatments, operations, but none brought any relief
I begged for it to leave me, to be free of its tight hold;
I cried for endless days, years, no one listened who I told
Sleep was the only relief for me, I was so scared of waking;
To be hit by a wall of hideous hurt, a hell that it was making
I knew that it was coming, the major last resort;
Taking away my womb from me, too numb for feelings or thought
So now I face my future, a path I wouldn't have chose;
To never hear “mummy” hurts more than anyone knows
So babies would not be my future, it was never meant to be;
The wonderful mummy I could have been was just not meant for me
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❝To be hit by a wall of hideous hurt, a hell that it was making❞ ... Good use of alliteration (hideous hurt) and consonance of "h" here, Tracey.
Imaginative slant, or near, rhyming as well with, resort & thought ...
This write is very emotionally driven. a poignant, melancholy musing for sure.
So many who seem to want to have children cannot. But those who don't long for a child of their own get pregnant then subsequently end up having an abortion.
Life can be so confounding at times.
Nicely penned, Tracey.
~Dean Kuch ?
Thank you for your appreciation & feedback, Dean ?. Yes this is very personal write, and a journey of which many women have also walked. The hideous hurt caused by a condition that has affected & altered thousands of lives worldwide, namely Endometriosis. There is still no cure & unfortunately there are thousands of women suffering needlessly as some Drs are not diagnosing sooner. It is also not given the same importance as other disabilities/conditions, sadly. But this disease is an evil one for sure. I am a victim, as are the children I was never able to have. But I am also a survivor.. & champion of the cause to ensure less & less women worldwide have their dreams stolen ?
You're welcome, Tracey.
Keep fighting the "good fight."
~Dean :} ♥
Thank you for your appreciation & feedback, Dean ?. Yes this is very personal write, and a journey of which many women have also walked. The hideous hurt caused by a condition that has affected & altered thousands of lives worldwide, namely Endometriosis. There is still no cure & unfortunately there are thousands of women suffering needlessly as some Drs are not diagnosing sooner. It is also not given the same importance as other disabilities/conditions, sadly. But this disease is an evil one for sure. I am a victim, as are the children I was never able to have. But I am also a survivor.. & champion of the cause to ensure less & less women worldwide have their dreams stolen ?
Hello Tracey...
There's lots of people men and women who have issues to prevent them from having children...
There are so many children wanting and needing a forever family...
Widespread pain indeed...
Great awareness write!
Thank you for sharing...
Hugs...
sparrowsong
Thank you sparrowsong. ? Yes absolutely. There have been some wonderful families made when both women & men who can’t, find the special children who had no one ?. If my poem raises awareness of just one of the reasons people may struggle to have a family & it means those women who are suffering this horrendous disease are diagnosed sooner, before life changing major surgery, I will have helped in a very small way ? x