Too late

I think I'll get some sleep tonight
I'm tired of this weight
This emptiness is heavy 
And it owns another fate
My heart has grown weary
Of the chaos in my head
And I can't seem to forget
All the words he never said
All the ghosts that haunt me
Are the same that I dream of
They take on may forms
From insidious evil to drowning love
The family that is no more
The friends long gone
The toll it has taken
The path it has led me on
I cannot stay forever
Just like everyone I've loved
They all seem to disappear
As if I've pushed and shoved
Now alone and kneeling
I pray for some peace
God help me I'm so broken
I have lost every little piece
Of me that I left here
To struggle fight and stop the beating
I'm battered , bruised and searching for a heart not fleeting
I have nothing left now
But unsaid words and memories
Regrets and shame held close
Weakening me like a disease
The damage has been done
The battle fought and lost
If I had known it would all be for nothing
I would have  never paid the cost
Now it's too late
And that's the worst thing you can be
You'll never suffer a harsher fate
Than what's standing in front of me.