Torn

My heart weeps with pain.
These tears are uncontrollable like current of the rain.
I scream with sorrow hoping to see the light of tomorrow.
My mind is unclear.
Being alone is something I deeply fear.
Loosing a loved one tears me apart.
Even tho i was never whole from the start. 
I try to hold it back trying not to let it show.
God is forcing me to let go.
I was young when I lost the first.
Each and every day the hurting gets worse.