TORN LOVE

I HAD WRITTEN YOU SOMETHING FROM THE HEART
BUT DEEP DOWN I JUST DONT KNOW IF 
IF YOU DESERVE MY LOVELY ART
AS I LAY N STARE INTO THE AIR AND THINK
THINK OF WHAT TODAY WAS SUPPOSED TO BE
IM FEELING QUITE OPPOSITE OF HOW I
I SHOULD FEEL AND WHAT I SHOULD FEEL
I MEAN WHAT REALLY IS THE DEAL 
MY HEART KEEPS SINKING WHEN I REMEMBER
REMEMBER THOSE WORDS YOU SAID TO ME
AND I CRY BABY I CRY OVER N OVER
AGAIN I JUST CANT SEEM TO STOP THE TEARS
FLOWING LIKE A TROPICAL RAIN FOREST
THE DEPRESSION SOAKING ME UP LIKE
LIKE PANCAKES SOAK UP SYRUP
ITS SO AGONIZING AND PAINFUL SO DEEP
I WEEP WEEP UNTIL MAYBE I MAY SLEEP
FELT INTENTIONALLY HURT BY THOSE WORDS
FEELS LIKE I DONT KNOW WY IM HERE
FEELS LIKE I KEEP MESSING UP MY LIFE
FEELS LIKE I CANT DO ANYTHING RIGHT
FEELS LIKE THE DEVIL MAY WIN
AND DROPS 
MY HEART DROPS AGAIN AS THE WATER FLOWS
DOWN MY FACE LIKE NIAGARA FALLS
WISHING THIS WAS ALL A DREAM
BUT IT IS NOT SO IT SEEMS 
I AM NOT IN THE WRONG AND IM NOT
IM NOT GONE KEEP FEELING THAT WAY
THOSE WORDS SPOKEN TOWARDS ME
SPITEFUL N HURTFUL THEY SEEMED
THINK IM IN THE WRONG IF U DO
BUT I WASNT WRONG I FELT THE DEVIL
DEVIL INSIDE OF YOU WITH THOSE
EVERLASTING LINGERING WORDS
HAVE NT WRITTEN WRITTEN SO DEEP
YEARS IT HAS BEEN SEEMS IVE FALLEN
FALLEN BACK INTO THE DARK WHOLE
DARK WHOLE I ONCE LIVED IN
BUT DONT CRY FOR ME IT IS A PHASE
IM RUNNING IN CIRCLES OF THIS MAZE
MAZE CALLED LIFE WHICH KEEPS WINNING.