True self

lost in the crowd, 
lost inside my own world,
suffocating in my own home,
wearing makeup to hide my flaws,
hiding behind a mask,
it's the girl I am... 
big heart, 
bright blue eyes
beautiful, 
sweet smile, 
it's the way you see me,
showing my true self isn't an option, 
the girl I pretend to be, 
i smile,
I'm happy on the outside,
a social butterfly,
hangout with others, 
lots of support,
 wearing cute dresses, 
but it's all a lie, 
putting spikes on my halo, 
turning it into a crown,
it's just the way it has to be,
hid my true self, 
locked up my heart,
built a wall around myself,
trying to stay away from the one I like the most,
but in the end i will show you the real me,
it's just going to take sometime to get there,
 you showed me the light when there was nothing but darkness, 
taught me to smile when everything was falling apart.
your the one I want by my side, 
afraid of telling you the truth,
afraid of losing you,
I can now speak my mind and my heart is free,
my walls are slowly going down,
and it's because of you,
letting people in,
trusting you with my life...