trying night

I thought I was done expecting you 
To come back to me 
The way you often do
After what i believed to be our last fight 
Almost a month ago 
Our worst goodbye 
I cast my circle and weeks went by
Before I remembered 
The warmth by your side
The hazy blue in your eyes 
Until you came back to me 
In the middle of the night 
Drink on your tongue
“I love you” you would sigh
“No matter how hard I try
No matter who’s by my side
I can’t shake the image of your face 
Invading my own personal space”
I put a spell on you 
With time it proved true 
I don’t know what I’m doing-
I’m lost without you
“I can’t seem to get you out of my head 
Alcohol from a bottle glowing red
Bringing someone else to bed, 
You’re always there, in my head”
The savory sounds roll off my tongue 
“I loved you then 
And I love you now”
I’ll probably never stop 
As long as you come back to me 
Even if only in a dream