Tug Of War

Unfortunately, the audio file is too big for this one, but here are the lyrics. 

Lyrics

Don’t know if I can keep fighting
Be about your word I’m trying
But every time I get close, he pulls me more
So sick of playing this game of tug of war

Some days it can feel like I am so close to you
Others I just feel like I am so far away
Only knowing one thing
There is no sin that’s sane
But all these thoughts on my brain
Will make a sinner go insane, man
And lately I have felt conflicted about the songs I write
Should I just use my tongue for praise and only speak on how I follow Christ?
But that’s different on how I have dealt with it up until now
In life, I would just hold my tongue, in song, I‘d curse and let it out

Father God, I need you more than ever
Surrounded by these lies and all of them seem so clever
I can’t trust anyone, cause they all got different stories
Lord I’m calling you now, God, please surround me with your glory
Cause I 

Don’t know if I can keep fighting
Be about your word I’m trying
But every time I get close, he pulls me more
So sick of playing this game of tug of war

I know if I don’t let go then betrayal it will control me
But I can’t help but be hurt from their misjudgment, they don’t know me
They may think that they know it all 
I know they’ve been betting on me to fall
But for Christ, here I stand
I’ll be standing til the end
I am good, I am straight
I love you, now get up out my way
Prefer you say it to my face
If you got something else to say
I feel more at peace, I don’t care if slander is the price I pay
Cause all that matters to me is the sacrifice that Jesus made

Father God, I need you more than ever
Surrounded by these lies and all of them can seem so clever
I can’t trust anyone, cause they all got different stories
Lord I’m calling you now, God, please surround me with your glory
Cause I 

Don’t know if I can keep fighting
Be about your word I’m trying
But every time I get close, he pulls me more
So sick of playing this game of tug of war

People talk about my past
People talk about my future
People talk about my present
That’s just something that I’m used to
That happened a while back
You cannot judge me for that
And I don’t believe in fortune tellers
You wanna guess my future? No, I’ll tell you...
It’s with Christ