TURNING THE PAGE

Angels, sometimes what we think is the saddest day of our lives....is the one that marks the turning point in an exceptional journey into a new world of light.....life and greater spiritual connection with God the Father.....he created us to be happy, caring, loving, compassionate people...but sometimes...that isn't always so.....Chaos created around us can be replaced with knowledge that "you deserve" BETTER......

We only get one life...it's not a dress rehearsal, nor is it something you try out for a time...while destroying the lives of those around you.....be mindful....and life will be easier...the battles are what we decide to partake in.....OR NOT!  We learn from the miseries of life....or we only repeat the patterns....That my Angels....God leaves up to you....

TURNING THE PAGE

As this engagement ring comes off my finger

I pause for my thousandth time with such regret

You never made any effort to put your best foot forward

I can no longer ignore this, or pretend to forget

I love you, but I know I must leave you

I need to friends, and I have to find my true place

I can’t stay in this silent, sad world we created

Because in this sad, cold silence, I will surely die, and be erased

These pills I take won’t lesson this great heartache

For seven years I've wanted to speak

I always recall the words I said when I first met you

But, you won't learn, you won't grow, your negative vibes leave me weak

I have a talk with God my Father every second

And he is trying to fill all these empty voids

The love he shows me when he breaks through this terrible silence

Makes me smile through the sadness, feeling hope, overjoyed

My writing is making it virtually impossible

For me to ignore the emotional pain I see on my page

And this loneliness that you are still wrapping around my world

I know if I don’t leave you, I'll be locked in this cage

I won’t say that I’m sorry; God knows that I've tried

I put my best foot forward with love, compassion and hope

But, you’re mind has grown cloudy, and your voice remains silent

You seem happier sleeping, or smoking your dope

I’m tired of feeling your energies chaos; I’m tired of living alone

I’m tired of seeing the look of disdain on your faces

My mind has been opened; I’ve grown out of your silence

God has given me powers that chaos can’t erase

All I have wanted all my life was a family

And I've made no connection with yours

Your children are heartless, and I am ignored

Never in my life, have I felt so lost, so invisible, so ignored

As I put this ring down on the table

I feel I feel empty, I feel hope, I feel free

Because, I love myself more, and I know I’ll survive this

And there's a greater connection now, between my God and me…

© Brenda Keough       June 2, 2015                                                                                    3:10-3:13 p.m.

Don't live in isolation, or silence....Life is yours child get lost in God's garden..giggle.......

The chaos is gone from my heart....and I'm smiling again....and giggling....lol ;)  Thank you all for coming into my new world....