twisting, winding and swirling

twisting,
winding,
and swirling filling each thought cavity inside my brain.
too many thoughts,
so many of them drive me wholly insane....
from the core they rot and gnaw away at eachother,
making me forget,
making me forget the simplicity of life,
where did i go so wrong?
can't remember the last time I remembered without a list but then I walk past and even it's the list that gets forgotten,
twisting,
winding and swirling again trying to catch hold of at least one before they dissapear, 
my memories come and then they ever so slowly reappear.
they sneak up on me,
right from
 behind,
tap on my shoulder then disappear.