Uncertain

My eyes are blurry...I feel like I should of been dead n buried ...My mind is tired n my heart is weary..My present is iffy n my future is scary..I'm gifted, persistent. But still wondering who's listening to my voice as it echos in the distance. .My existence got me thinking.. I feel sickening to my stomach. ..Not scared but I'm running n I'm keeping it ?...I feel lost. But I kno I have a purpose n I kno I'm not perfect but I need some kind of breakthrough n I kno God is Faithful.. Not to say I'm not grateful but I'm living in a day where nothing seems to change n everything just looks uncertain and the same!