Unloved

My heart swallowing
my entire being
the first time I saw you.
I felt in my chest that I was
going to love you
for eternity.

Days of infatuation turned into
months of lustful love.
That’s just it.
I loved you.
The words tickled my tongue as they
swarmed into yours like
a joyful hive of bees.
Aching to collect your nectar of passion.

How did you forget how
hard you kissed me, the night I left,
the first night we spent together?
How did your body not urge to
fold into the tiniest atom there is
every time you saw me cry
because you never wanted me?
Every night I sleep next to
a box of tissues in case you
visit my dreams
Only to remind me how much
I’m missing out on.

I avoid your name like its a
curse word
Accidentally said
in a catholic church.

You remind me of my father.
Unjust.
Unappreciative.
Unhappy.
Not around for me to grow with.