Unwanted Voice.

Happy then sad.
Good then bad.
An angelic being then jack the lad.
A caring parent then a unloving dad.
Christianly sane then devilishly mad.
I want to change my feelings but i don’t know what to do.
My lack of coloured mind always favours a depressing blue.
For me being normal is not a choice.
In my head there always comes a thought changing voice.
I want to change my way.
So for me please do pray.