Ventilator Mask

When Helen would 
fall Into sleep she 
Stop breathing
Sometime layIng In
Our bed I'd watch
her afraid to go to sleep for fear she'd not breathe again I used to count the seconds till she drew air In her lungs again
It got so bad so Helen had to start wearing a mask at night connected to 
Ventilator machine
In order for her to breath We didn't know but settings were set wrong months came and past before we realised me constantly taking the mask off trying to ajust it then putting It back on again At one point nearly drove me to killing myself due the lack of sleep and arguments really found out the truth When I used It myself I couldn't breathe with it on to much pressure had to apologise
to Helen  
just as Helen hated that mask so did I
always felt like I was forcing It on he face
almost like a punishment how was she expected to sleep at night with that on her face That really was the beginning of the end for my beloved Helen.
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