Wasting away the days

Haven’t been myself lately that’s all I have to say. Used to be working hard every day just to waste the time away. But now I sit and stare into outer space. No reason why just to take its place. 6:30 makeup on and out the door. Why am i doing this anymore? 2:30 getting home eat some food and go to sleep. Dang I just wish I had someone who cared about me. Sleep for 5 more hours and wake up at 7. Get your homework done before you stay up late sweating. Work done by 9 up til 1 crying. Don’t ask why. I don’t know. Let’s just keep on fighting. Fighting for my dreadful place in this damned world. Fighting just to fit in all to make it happen. “Hey how’s it going?” “Good how about you?” Sorry I just lied to you. But that’s what I do. I’m crying on the inside. Horrible and broken. But you don’t know that. Let’s keep quiet keep moving onwards. But now this must come to an end beautiful and sweet. To something bitter almost bland tripping over my own 2 feet.