Weak

Starting off weak, starting off small
Gotta make it through this week and give it my all
But I'm lost in the forest
And all I see are the trees that block my sight from the sky
And no matter how hard I try
I just fall, I fall into oblivion and am lost in this void
I'm starting off weak, I'm starting off small
But I'm as fragile as an antique, one burn and I begin to bawl
So I just run from the world and hide in my own 
Where I'm trapped with my bullies, guilt and pain
My heart sparks by my tears of propane
Colorless, nonetheless blessed
This is not a dream
Life doesn't go as everyone seems
Because we fall, and we're left with the terrible marks leftover
Don't mind the cuts on our arms, for they're just tattoos that represent who we are
I'm lost in a forest...
A forest filled with thoughts
Three months old I lost my home 
Three years old I felt like a robot
A robot who fears love and who also forgot
Six years old I was struck with the knowledge that the world isn't always on your side
You either follow the lead or you'll be left behind
10 years old I contemplated life
I picked up that knife...
But I just couldn't...
So I just cried
13 years old I locked away my pain
Don't let no one know that I'm here
Cause I just want to disappear
Should they know?
Does the world need to know?
No one needs to know
I'm ending off weak, I'm ending it off small
No one seems to hear my echoing call
I'll just disappear in this forest
Disappear in my lost of thoughts
I am not a robot

I always felt forgotten and that I was never there
It felt like my name just disappeared
I'm not strong enough to speak up
I'm not tall enough to look up through the trees to see the sky
I say one thing and wait for a reply
But I hear no sound, because nobody's around
I don't want to make a mess out of this
So I'll just stand back...
I'm trapped in their shadows of darkness
Smile
I'm not crying
Change your lifestyle
I'm fine
No you're not 
Just ignore my tears and just notice my smile
Stop hiding
Please don't leave me
Just stay a bit while
But I don't want anyone to look at this mess
I don't want to look at it
What if they saw all my stress?
Words stick to me like glue
So I just run away from what's true

I'm weak
I'm weak
I'm small
I'm small 
But that doesn't mean I won't give it my all.