Weather Of Emotions

Why do you do this to me? 
Why are you so cruel? 
Not understanding
Forever a wall 
Of hardness that water
Can’t even get through
Even I don’t understand 
How I have stayed so long 
I’m forever the fly on the wall
That can’t get through to you
Am I the crazy one?
Because I’m still here? 
Dealing with 
Whatever you go through
Even a Dam gives way 
To a little spill of water
A trickle even 
To show it exists 
But to you 
to you 
You Can’t 
Even let a whisper of cool air breeze by
To let me be aware 
That water exists there
A barren desert is what you are
Dry and colder at night
When day is done, you cause a fight
With your bitter cold 
Not even a blanket to warm my spirits
My soul cries out for a listening ear 
That doesn’t exist anymore
Your voice is angry thunder 
And I’m scared 
The rain only hides my tears 
I want a sunny day 
Not blistering heat 
Just enough 
I don’t mind a jacket or a hoodie
As long as there’s fresh air 
To show water is there 
A puddle here and there, I won’t complain 
But thunder and rain 
Is a bit too much pain 
They usually turn into hurricanes 
And now 
I don’t know how much this house can take
It’s starting to break 
and wither 
Fall and crumble
This house had already been through much too much 
It’s not fair that after building it back up,
you huff and puff 
and its back weak and brittle
I can’t afford it 
Insurance doesn’t cover it 
And pretty soon I’ll have to move 
Remove myself from desert spells
and rain down pour 
Why do you do this to me? 
You’re so cruel 
I’m better somewhere else 
And I have to remember 
If I move somewhere else
I won’t have to go through 
All this weather that seems to rule you