what foolish feels like

I was never shown how to let go 
I was shown that in time the pain wouldn't hurt me so 
Try to move on but I always choke 
I was always taught that you fix things that broke 
So again and again I'm your heart healer 
If sex was a drug I would be your dealer 
But it typical of you 
To not be loyal or true 
So once I've done all I can 
I would watch you walk away and drop my hand 
On to the next 
Why must you make things so complex 
my world upside time after time 
It's as if your saw my wounds and tried to cure them with a lime 
Toxic mix
Tell me we can try again
Quick fix
Little did I know it was from your bag of tricks
Still to you 
I'm stuck like glue 
Although I know 
up you'll never grow 
I'm good enough to lay in your bed
But not to help you get ahead 
Although my days are cold without you 
I know it's best for me to keep pushing through 
But my mind is changed by feelings of déjà vu 
Cause I know your suppose to be mine 
But like a cat our life spam seems to be at nine 
I still have faith you'll see 
With me is where you should be 
My mind tells me to leave I must admit
But What do I do when my heart won't let me quit