what a shitty friend.

What a shitty friend am I
to sit here with these tears I cry ,
While you were there your thoughts to die
You left without the sound of goodbye,
my eyes were closed and I could not see,
beyond you smiling happily,
the depression not showing through,
I'm so dam angry at you,
your beautiful family
left behind so heartbroken
so hurt,
Our friendship in question
because I was blind,
what was going on
inside of your mind,
friends are ment to comfort
and heal such hurt,
not partake in funerals
offering their bodies
into the dirt.
I'll miss you everyday.