What they don`t know

Exercise seems pointless to me

Dieting also seems pointless

Because whether I lose or gain or remain the same,

I`ll never be able to love it that much.

I`ll try starring at the mirror without faking a smile

but the it will all hit me...

I`ll never be able to love it that much.

Can`t seem to find the right stuff that goes well with it,

Even my mom criticizes me every chance she gets for that.

When I see "theirs", I`d be like if only it was me.

What the don`t understand is

I`ll never be able to love it that much.

That even talking about it...

I can`t even rhyme in this poem.

If I had a wish for every penny I bear,

It would be to change the way I look.

Because even if they say I`m beautiful or sexy

Not to mention gorgeous or amazingly stunning,

I`ll never be able to accept wholeheartedly

Only, I wish I could be like that.

The biggest insecurity I`m facing as an 18 year old!

Compliments about my looks never seem to touch me

Because I know, even when I pick an outfit,

I`d still have to fight to hide my insecurities.

Even when I look at the mirror again,

I`d still frown because at least I know now no crown matches my figure

My face is ok but I can`t say about the rest of me,

That is why I`ve even had to let it go...

The idea of being crowned `Miss Okay Figure`

Because I can`t at least beat those figures

Going up even if I don't eat!

That is what they`ll never understand

That this 18 year old teen has always been insecure.

Insecure because her body doesn't match the face

That is what she thinks, feels and sees!

Which is what they don`t understand...