What’s the Last Word Worth?

What’s the last word worth?
Leave lasting hurt?
Keep your insecurities curbed? 
Pennies on your person 
A purse too small to hold its weight in wealth 
The anti-stealth, 
Jeopardizer of mental health 
That at first seems worth the time it takes to text it 
Check back at your messages 
and wrestle with 
the lack of satisfaction 
Any further action quelled 
So if you're gonna do it - do it well 
So it can age that way 
At least as far as you can sell 
The farther I’ve reached outside myself 
The farther I fell, the harder I flail
Once you say what needs to be said there’s really nothing left to tell 
I cut my losses,
Can’t take another L
Told the devil gimme five 
while I'm still alive and well 
I will keep these dark thoughts to myself 
But I can't keep them locked for the sake of my health
So I write them down to let them out 
And as the ink sinks in
the emotions shrink and sink like a ship
Like the first sip of the last drink on your lips - it would be a sin to spill 
Death is inevitable, go for the kill 
I’ll share a laugh with Lucy later down in hell