What's wrong with me?

What's wrong with me? 

I can tell you, I'm in pain you see? 

Of course you don't

I'm a master of disguise 

I'm living a fairy-tale life of lies

Tell me, are you surprised? 

It's okay I'll just knock back another drink 

That way I can't feel my heart sink 

I never new I could hate myself this much 

I'm numb to the touch 

I live in past 

How much longer will this last 

im my own monster I decide my mood 

again I don't feel like touching my food 

i thought I was doing well today

but now I'm frail why I lay 

i lie paralysed 

whilst I close my eyes 

i let me down 

i let you down

now take away my crown 

whilst I sit here and frown

im sure I'll be okay 

just not today..