When The Depression hits me

I don't think that I'm here for the long ride
It just hurts when the depression hits me  
People think that they know me 
When really I feel like I'm drowing at sea 
I came from the good side I ain't come from the streets 
This shit aint easy some people know how it be  
But man I'll tell you how I feel 
can barely eat a meal thinking about all these ordeals people don't know how it feels but still I come to the appeal
You see that smile on my face it's
just like Kevin gates that shit ain't really real 
People don't really know about this
But lately I just feel like I'm in an abyss 
No this shit really ain't a diss 
Yes I need to reminisce 
But maybe now I don't need to dismiss all of this 

Yea,

When the depression hits me
It feels like a pit in me 
Unwittingly bringing me down 
Like a king without his crown 
I've cut deep down and that's why these days feel more like a count down
To the day where I shut and lie down dead 
With no threads of life left as if I just got hit over the head just laying in bed
But yea I've bled the colour of brick red by the time you're reading this I might just be in my deathbed 
But right now I might explode like a warhead I feel like a wolf yea a true purebred but for real don't be mislead instead look ahead
I'm dead