When they ask why??

As a child i was quiet
Didn't speak out,
Felt like an outsider,
Although i wasn't popular
Had many friends,
Friends that ment the world to me but they Moved onward without a care
Leaving me alone wondering why
I shared my soul till it was bare,
Life isn't always easy that much is true,
Times get hard so many lessons
To get through,
As a mother i found a wonderful place to leave my heart,
in safety
Knowing it would always be there,
And only in death my role as a mother would end,
My children are my best friend's they make me smile inside and out,
laugh on the outside in,
Like breathing the same air,
extremely happy to be their mum,
In times when they hurt,
i hurt too,
There is nothing i wouldn't do for their happiness,
But when im sad they become little adults,
Consoling me when it's not their roll to play,
So beautiful and caring in everyway,
I'd be lost without them,
They know the tears I've cried,
They've cried too,
Lived through the reasons why,
But still i have no answer to the question's,
When they ask why??

For i don't know why??
So many moments , memories that hurt,
Covering the great memories in tears,
Still remembering them all so clear,
After all this time apart,
Still don't have the answer to when he threw away my heart,

I shall teach my children love,
Understanding of hurt,
I never sugar coat life within their sights,
They deserve love within all their rights,
I want them to know the difference between loving someone ,
And being treated badly inside of love,
Hopefully they grow up knowing
The difference ,
Never to be a fool in love and heartache,
Life is full of heartache,
But not enough love,
The true, smiling laughing, happily ever after love,
The love that fights for the other,
Not with the other,
Or against for person gain
The love strong enough to hold the other,
Not watch them fall within the dusty floor,
I know how to love,
But i know how to fight for the right of love,
I want them to fight for it too,
I'll teach them strength,
And patience,
To stand strong enough to face lifes situation's,
Even if indeed they aren't the best,
Life and love is always tested,
Hopeless hearts invested,
If i successfully teach them all,
Maybe their hearts shall never fall,
Nor get thrown away,
So they never ask the question
Why,
Within such hurtful tears within their eyes.