When You Leave Me

If you leave me by the ocean
I will drown
No body will be found
Because I've learned to swim
And when you leave me for another lover
I hope you fucking
Love him 
With all of your heart and soul
But at night when you're lonely
Pick up the phone and fucking call me
I'll be fucking useless
With all kinds of excuses
Like "I'm high"
Oh, when you can't tell yourself
From your lover 
Atleast you'll have each other
And that's fine
I'll be off drinking
And over thinking
The time
You knelt beside me
But you couldn't find me
Hiding beneath
Tubes of morphine
And hospital machinery
Where once I lay dying
Now I stand trying
To keep my mind
From drifting to places 
Far off and low in the clouds
Of smoking people smiling
Telling jokes and finally
In love with themselves
As much as anybody else