Where Are You

where are you when I fall on the ground. The ground is like hell. When you hit the wind I felt lost and said that you were never forgiven for leaving me. Where are you when I break and need a hug. You were my best friend and brother . When you left me and the only thing you could say was i love you and ill see you soon but then you are not here anymore . Everything we had is gone and even the memories fade as I create more. Where are the bus rides and the best times of our lives are they disappearing and making me see lies of our friendships. Sometimes the pain of your loss i had from you is kept behind a door but the person I love tells me it's okay to cry and let it out. I scream in my head because no matter what after your death I lost trust in myself and lost the heart i had. Where did my screaming go. Where are you when you use to ask me to hide your hat or better yet where it was hiding. Where is my best friend and the man that always believed the people he loved were the ones that should never cry of him and only show their tears after drinking. 14 was to young to watch the death of a loved one leave your side. My amazing half christian of a brother where are you when I need a smack in the face and told to be quite. Memories are fading and it is making me miss your judgement. And they say time fades and this time I'm fading and I need you to tell me to boot up in my classes and i need you to be my suicidial moment where I can say ill cut you like i use too but only when I was angry and the person who would say do it but just remember who let you go crazy on them and who won't be there anymore. Those are the moments I'll miss of my brother. Where are you now? is now the question that seems to be the only thing now.