Where once they were...

Where once they were
 
The coffee cup, against mine, remains on the shelf
One day I maybe be strong enough I remind myself 
 
To remove it and leave a space, where yours used to be
A void on the shelf and a cavernous hole inside me 
 
A lonely red toothbrush, standing there on the sink
I can't remove it yet, it's too painful, it hurts me to think
 
Of all the many things of yours here, I need to let go
But it's futile, I'm not ready, when? I just don't know
 
Time heals? Does it really? Well time isn't helping me
I miss every part of you, I just don't understand how my life could be 
 
So empty, so lonely, without you I feel numb
I'm not eating, I'm not washing, I drench my thoughts in rum
 
Whisky, brandy, whatever I can pour down my throat
The chances of me missing you less are so very remote 
 
It's not like you left us, to live a new life alone
No, you took your last breath, leaving me forever on my own
 
I cry like an injured animal, my shoulders drooped, and heaving
I'm angry at the world, I'm constantly questioning your leaving 
 
I sit in my chair opposite yours, daydreaming, I can almost see you there
But then, reality hits me, there's an empty space where once you were.