Who Am I?

I try to be focused,
I try to move up,
I hope I was a locust,
I hope I could hop,
I wonder what happened,
I wonder who to trust,
I feel like I was flattened,
I feel like I’m going to combust,
I fail to become hungry,
I fail to catch my prey,
I look like I’m angry,
I look like I hate to stay,
I go to the wrong ways,
I go to my demise,
I stay to count the days,
I stay to close my eyes,
I cry when I see my future,
I cry when it looks back,
I hurt the major,
I hurt the crack,
I love the silence,
I love the skies,
I fly to the islands,
I fly to the wise,
I ask for advice,
I ask for favours,
I close the lies,
I close the papers,
I open my future,
I open my book,
I welcome you to the blooper,
I welcome you to the rook,
I welcome you to my world,
I welcome you to I,
I welcome you to the swirl,
Now who am I?