Who I am!

Mental state, deteriorate. Blow some and levitate
Higher than the sky, I meditate. To keep my sanity, alleviate. The pain, some pills, cold sweat, chills
My insides incinerate. The passion for money, 
capitalism is a killer honey.
My life, so lonely. 
Don't wanna live this prison. Crying, I can't even simulate. Dying, please, give me a brake
I'll come back, trying, doing it all without a mistake.
I am a loser, but I ain't fake. Knowing it all, 
everything is at stake. Slow pace, to make my life good, never wrong. I don't care if it doesn't last long. 
Join Cobain at the bong, 27 as I hit the gong, 
go to heaven or hell, neither places I belong. 
Stuck in a song. Luck is gone. Get dollars, 
now that's some shit. Maybe the reason why I spit. Eager to make a name, play the game. I'll always remain the same, it is hunting season but I run this region.