Why ?

Its going well and it seems okay but I know good feelings always fade away . There is some that always stay but very few and seem far away.
There is things like children that carry you away and you get lost in the love you have for them. Even that beautiful feeling fades also when it comes . .. it always comes sudden and if you could you would run. You can't run from what is running you. Its like a tree trying to live without air. Its impossible. Your soul gets over taken and you and it are just one. No matter how much you fight it and even recognise it. It won't leave ... so how do you let it go ?... with God ?...it seems that is the only answer . After all faith is what keeps it around . Just like something you fear. If you have faith and know something scares you it will. So faith is what drives it then .. its what drives everything. Faith can be evil and I have faith that even when I push this away it will return .. an evil sad faith I guess thats why they call it addiction.