Why am I so contradictive?

I believe in science and evolution of mankind,
But when times are tough I pray to a hopeful god up in the skies.
Does that make me contradictive?
I hate to be a stereotype and stereotypes in general,
But in certain situations I hold stereotypes in my mind too,
Does that make me a stereotypical fool?
Surely I really am turning into Mr contradictive it’s true.
I can't stand modern technological advancements,
But I look around my home and see all the new pieces of tech I have around my home.
Contradiction is a beast within us,
That indecisiveness inside of us all,
Can make some of us prevail and some of us falter and from grace fall,
Dependant on which contradictive path you choose,
Some of us win and some of us lose.
Contradiction at its best.
It's like I support Ipswich town as that's the local team,
I think they're the best but they can't even get out of their league, 
It's that damn contractiveness again,
Not planned at all but becomes an argument within my brain.
Drs gave me six weeks of life back in Christmas eve of 2004,
But I’m still here now living on for 12 memorable years and staying on for more.
So not just my mind is contradictive but my soul and body too,
It’s my whole life that's a contradiction, 
I can safely say that is true......
Am I being contradictive with my self healing too?
Using drugs that are illegal,
But help my pain more than the legal?
and all of the side affects times  2.
Nothing else,
except this magical herb works,
So the government is being contradictive in what they allow,
They know the power it holds,
 but won’t release the grip that they hold on us,
As would be the answer to many of lifes’ questions that many of us hold,
So the people who run this country are losing my trust. 
How many more dead bodies will they bury till it’s finally put to pass,
But they’re too contradictive,
Their laws need to be gone,
Obliterated to dust.
At least then when can start again, 
Using the herb to not kill it but cure the brain.
Cure the body or anything about you,
They’re so contradictive banning the only thing that does truly help to numb my pain.
Here comes that contradictiveness again,
I like jam on toast but I don’t like bread,
I like watching scary movies but hate how they scramble your head.
I’ll eat eggs and bacon but I don’t like dairy or meat,
Contradictions again,
All they are,
are the big and the small arguments you have mainly within yourself and can’t get out of your contradictive brain.
I believe myself to be an environmentalist but then don't bother recycling to help save the planet from what we are causing,
An ultimate ending to take our earth off the universes planetary list and all our world’s ending,
Wow,
That's a major contradiction!
I’m a vegan but I don’t like vegetables,
Or a carnivore that doesn’t eat meat!
These are just a couple of contradictions and there’s so much more.
We’re all contradictory,
So its not just me,
It’s built into each one of our central cores.