Why dad?

Why didn't you love me? 
Why didn't you care? 
Why did you beat us, 
Why did you make us live in fear?

That's all Ive ever wanted to know
But was always to scared to ask 
and because I never faced you
For the rest of my life I wore a mask

Always trying to be someone I wasn't
Attempting to become what others wanted to see
I've wasted a lifetime now
Playing a role that wasn't me

Never daring to tell
What happened many, many years ago
ashamed of a past
So the real me I wouldn't show

So nervous so afraid
As a child It caused a twitch
Which made kids at school
Humiliate me, to the point where I was physically sick

Years of relentless beatings
Eventually took there toll
Always trying to become someone others would like
Was like selling my very soul

As an adult I could not face I didn't want anyone to see
The insecure little girl
So I reinvented me

All these years later
A life time has now past
It's time to reveal the whole true now
It's time to admit what happened at last