Why really

I told her i am in a relationship 
Her respond was she does not mind 
I told her i mind 
Her respond was so simple 
How do i hide these feeling?
How do i keep them away from you? 
I will be lying to myself if i said i don`t love you
I will be doing myself injustice by not expressing my love for you
I know she is there and i am willing to tell her 
I am willing to say to her i will wait for your relationship to fail
I know i can do and love you far better then her
I was defeated because i started questioning what she sees that i don`t see
She went on and said why if you love her so much your status still say single?
I said to her stop i love my woman 
She smiled and said ye right, you love her 
But you fail to put a ring on her finger claim her from the world that she is your one and only 
How many years have you dated her?
How many she called me by my name?
If you really love her i would not stand in-front of you and declare my love
I would be in front of your wife`s face and declare that i love her man and i want to be part of your life assist you and submit to you as the first wife.
Since i come to you and declare i can safely declare i can be first wife and her as second even thou she came first.
I wanted to run, felt helpless
This woman telling me of how she feels 
With no remorse but being factual at the same-time
Questions running thru my head,why am i not married with her if i am easy with declaring she is my future?
What type of future is this that started 5 years ago with no progress.
She said i love you and i want you to marry me 
I want to be your wife and i want to build a home you so desire but never had just wishes in your head.
I got defeated just like a player being played

Umhlaziyi Ozimele 
Sandile Mngadi