Will I or won't I

This is no game make sure you know that
for if he gets you that is that.
This devil will always give you a taste
His time with you never laid to waste.
Playing this hand consumed with shame
Giving him your power your soul contained.
Stay too long, surprise you are hooked
Never remembering the ways the mirrors once looked.
Stalking chance to ravish you again 
Forgetting your morals bludgeoned in sin.
Controlling you with his narcotic charm
You run to him needle in arm.
Following him willingly consumed with shame
Your arm bleeds blood loving his insane.
He will hold your hand and drag you to hell
And there all alone wasting away in a cell.
Why this pain you keep chasing
Your desire to stop but your mind keeps racing.
But you asked for him, letting him in
Pretending like he's your long lost friend.
Fall on your knees and begin to pray
And hope this won't be your final dark day.
Just remember all the pain that you've felt
Because you have to play out the hand that you dealt.
Having the strength with God to be free
And tell that evil bastard you will never have me.
Now that I know, will I tell him goodbye
Will I or won't I?