Wishing and wondering

Closing my eyes dreaming of peace
Sitting here with my sorrow
Blaming myself for all the things that happened to me
Stranger trying to have a voice
Can't even speak or see
Don't know what is wrong or right
Waiting in my death bed
Should I stay or go
The enemy inside me
So confused and bothered
Who am I lonely and lost
Just a picture on the wall that know ones see
Invisible that is me