Wishing I never lost you

I feel a tear run down my cheek

Not even realizing I'm crying

These little memories make me weak

No matter how hard I'm trying

You are always on my heart

But not always on my mind

It wasn't like that at the start

Now I've had to leave the pain behind

I know I'll never move on

But I know I've changed how I feel

Because I couldn't believe you are gone

And now I know it's for real

It doesn't hurt any less

I've just gotten used to pushing it away

Because I can't be a tragic mess

Every single waking day

No I have to carry on again

Even though I don't want to

All I want to do is think of then

And wishing I never lost you