You and me

You know it's not until you walk into an actual bar that one of my caliber realizes that this is where he really belongs   Accepted and cherished among all the other degenerates that flock to the same place to to rest their arms on a well worn length of wood that has seen such scowls and scandalous characters over the years that I am just another wasted soul in the long line of drunks that have past through the ever revolving door and that's music to my ears   Years and years have past since that first sip  And I have had such a hard time from that point on to right the ship   I look at my glass as always half full.. and then I get pissed at the bar keep for letting get that Low 
 When others try as hard as they might to control me and intervene, I find a way to their heart and remind THEM of the shit that's always in their river against which they row  
 Let me tell you this .. My life has been filled and fueled by all types of attempts to impress upon me the wrong that I'm doing and the people that I cause pain    To all of those loving people in my life I want you all to know how  disappointed I am with myself that I didn't ( wasn't able to) deliver all the things that I once seemed destined for and on my soul that leaves a huge stain   I could write one thousand more words to complete this   But I believe that most of you know how this whole thing will end with my lips puckered at the end of the rope forever seeking that life saving kiss