You Dont Know Me

How do you see me, do you really know me?
How can you judge me, why are you so cruel?
I am a person, not an object to be stamped on for your self-gratification.
Every day I fight with my emotions, hidden behind a mask of despair,
When I feel I am getting stronger and the pain eases,
People like you crush and smash through my wall of safety,
With your acid tongue, leaving me broken
And back to square one.

 You don’t know me
I thought you were a friend, a colleague to turn to, when days were dark,
But all along you just reeled me in and spat me out,
I opened my door of optimism to you, only to have it slammed in my face
Make friends I am told, let people in, trust your colleagues, it helps to talk,
Then along you came to shatter that illusion, the trust now gone,
Replaced by regret, again I find myself alone, silence my only friend.

You don’t know me
The person you see before yourself who smiles through the pain,
Who sits every day in my room of memories, shut behind a locked door,
You don’t see me cry my tears of despair, or hear my silent screams for someone, to tell me everything will be fine,
I seem to take one step forward and ten steps back, only these steps lead to a black hole that gets bigger each day, is this my only way out.

You don’t know me
The pain the suffering, the silence I endure every day, hidden behind a false smile and a crushed body,
I am alone, my only comfort a picture of my beloved wife so dearly missed, soon replaced by loneliness, no one comes to my door, I push my friends away, my family, because of people like you,
Trust. Trust, Trust, one word so powerful so strong, now replaced by Loneliness and Despair, how can I trust, who can I trust.
You don’t know me you never will!!