You fool

Empty thoughts and no decisions 
How did I get to this position?
Wandering around,
Feeling the greys, blues and mean reds 
Eventually, don't you see the threads?
Pull them tight below my feet
Lock me in place,
Let me speak. 
 
Do I have my feelings, Or are they yours?
I can't see cleanly in this fog. 
I'm confused and misdirected 
Restrained with too much space.
While you're unaffected. 
marble lines make it hard to hide behind. 
Weeps with a sense:
strong, ruthless, very kind. 
 
Yet,
I pull away.
my words mean nothing,
I am always four hours late.
I don’t trust.
Forgetful and broken.
See into my clear glass world,
Listen to its silence.
Watch it fall to its knees,
Twist
and turn violet.