"A little bit about me" By Ben Goode 2017 (c)

There are some people you can talk to, and any view you have, any discussion of a possibility.
Any input.
Is blatantly put down, quite openly.
And you're made to feel like an incompetent fool.
I saw a group of three people I used to hang out with tonight.
One of them who I used to consider quite intelligent was there.
We used to hang out, and have writing meetings, brainstorming various idea's etc.
But over time I noticed he was quite arrogant, and closed minded about quite a few things.
His behavior in discussions over time, became unnecessarily condescending.
A superiority complex if ever I've struck one.
I'm not sure, but I think some people have it built into them.
Maybe arrogance and general snobbery is hereditary?
But I despise it.
I really really despise it.
I guess if I wasn't so "nice" I'd let them have it, and tell them just how it is.
Oh I wish I had said, is often an afterthought I have.
Could of, would have, should have!
Oh what I wish I would have loved to have said to this dude tonight.
But it would have somehow had to be philosophical, for him to understand.
But of course I would have had to quote whoever said it too.
But sometimes I think Intellectuals deserve a bit of originality.
Something I thought of, especially customized for them.
"You may be a smart man, perhaps one of the smartest men I have ever met.
But don't mistake my accolade with respect or admiration.
Only real friends share that!"
I know when somebody doesn't want to have a conversation, because of the effort you have to take to try and create one.
I'm not stupid, and I don't like being made to feel that way.
I'm not altogether smart either, because of the great trust I place in some people, who really don't deserve it.
I sometimes make the mistake of becoming too passionate about things, whether it be family, friends, work and writing.
I invest my heart into so much.
But I shouldn't, as a rule.
I take initiative, run with idea's and I'm often left feeling very disappointed, that they didn't work out.
I want to lead, and take charge.
But I often feel like I'm trying to jump out of a war trench, straight into enemy fire, which in essence is reality.
I am not a realist.
I am a dreamer, and always have been.
I am very much misunderstood.
I have come to realize that, I'm different.
And I'm not a friend that suits many people.
I talk too much, I share too much.
But I have always been like that.
I don't intend to change.
I don't think I ever could anyway.
I'm just too set in my ways. 
I think as I get older, I will probably become more eccentric.
Maybe even more misunderstood.
But if that is my destiny, I have already come to accept it.