addicted to writing

So I have officially become addicted to writing, whether is poetry or stories, maby even silly jokes. not a day goes by where I do not write at least 5 paragraphs I find when im away from my keboard or note pad I begin to get the itch, even when im not putting a pen to paper my hands mime the action of writing or typing the words floating around in my head. when I post them its like a extreme hi getting reviews comments or stars, so much so that I push myself the next time so I can get that much higher still, I humble myself before god because I am a weak man in the face of addiction.I blame all of you for feeding my problem, my mother especially buying me a new phone for christmas, I spend half my paycheck on the internet bills alone blogging from my smart phone, just to get in that inbetween computers upper oh god it feels so good. when im not writing the words in my head swirl faster and faster causing the words I speak to slur or studder, I have to, I need to write, right now. your just jealos because of my talent, if you dont like it you can leave. I dont have a problem it's a gift. im sure you have all heard it before. I have the itch right now! and it needs to be scratched, please just post something say anything about my post. do you hate it? love it? adore it? well then say so and watch me shudder with devine pleasure, it hits the spot so well. you all are my drug and I hit it every day. to go days without bathing or talking to anyone, just to hit that addiction, my hair in matts coffee stains on my tee shirt and arthritis begining to kick in, I push past the pain just to get a few more words in, so I can recieve your praise.iv had breaks ups over waking up at the keyboard, and even lied about it claiming how I just got home from the bar and was just checking my email, anything would be better than admitting I have a problem, dont look at me DONT LOOK at ME! im so ugly when im like this, I want to die.